had to post
my gang knows that i dont post to often and i dont get into issues that are to deep, but i had to post on this.. to be honest i did tune in in part to see what was really going on and i guess in a sad way to see what sort of train wreck she has become. its a sick side of most of us out there that we have this need to see the rich and beautiful fail and fall. and from time to time i seem to fall victim to that sort of mental sadness, so for that i am ashamed. about one min into the story a flood of memories began to fill my head and heart, i remember watching several loved ones deal with cancer and loose the battle. i remember holding there hands and praying for them, and then as time passed praying that god would just take them in the hopes of stopping there pain. cancer is a cruel monster that in my opinion is kept around for the most part because there is to much money to be made off the disease. like many i dont see why there is not more effort put into things like this and why we cant adopt better ways of treating this as they do in other parts of the world. but enough of the soap box. two things she said that made me think.. if the best answer you can come up with to the question of how are you doing? is "well im alive" then she is right your doing great. your still here to fight. and the second question she asked of all of us "what are you living for?" well all i can say is that after cancer or what ever disease has touched your life or the life of someone you truley love i sure hope the reason your living is a better one than you had before. and i hope its based on love