Last night was bad, the cravings was nearly unbearable. I am in the process of completely reevaluating what I do and when I carry out a task/chore etc. Didn't really realize just how much my whole life revolved around even just one cigarette. You complete a chore and you want to light up, you face a stressful situation and you want to light up, you eat and you want to light up. Right now I'm existing in a void or a vacuum,
Bosch2460 said "the void of smoking" and the term sticks in my mind.
This morning was not too easy either, I read and reread all of these posts over and over again AND IT HELPED. I am not alone,
everyone here knows what I'm going through I think, But today was just alittle easier than yesterday...but not by much. I smoked alot out of boredom too. I've smoked a pack a day for 20 years. Don't understand how I got myself in this situation, never wanted to be like my Dad in this respect.
Darrel, thank-you for the insight about not worrying with weight gain. I'm concerned that I'll replace food for cigarettes. And yes, I drink lots of water.
And I've thought of Pete from Calgary, who started back up.
This is hell and I can't imagine going through it again.
Jeff who is smoke free for 6 months, will I ever get there?
You know what guys, I have to secretly confess and admit something here. Yes, I want to get off of the medications and take a real deep breath, to feel good and HAVE ENERGY again.
And not to have to rely on that little blue pill for extra curricular activites (at $10.00 a pill!).....there I said it.
That provides some motivation too, but not alone enough to quit by itself. I still need the support here.
Well I've rambled on enough for now. Have got to get my car cleaned inside really well. I'll spray some of that fabric
deodorizer on my seats until I can get it in for reupholstering next month. It's like getting in an ashtry everytime I go somewhere. Also am watching my diet more carefully, maybe I need to start taking antioxidants too.
Will check in later. THANK-YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. YOU'RE MAKING A DIFFERENCE.
Barry
Bosch2460 said "the void of smoking" and the term sticks in my mind.
This morning was not too easy either, I read and reread all of these posts over and over again AND IT HELPED. I am not alone,
everyone here knows what I'm going through I think, But today was just alittle easier than yesterday...but not by much. I smoked alot out of boredom too. I've smoked a pack a day for 20 years. Don't understand how I got myself in this situation, never wanted to be like my Dad in this respect.
Darrel, thank-you for the insight about not worrying with weight gain. I'm concerned that I'll replace food for cigarettes. And yes, I drink lots of water.
And I've thought of Pete from Calgary, who started back up.
This is hell and I can't imagine going through it again.
Jeff who is smoke free for 6 months, will I ever get there?
You know what guys, I have to secretly confess and admit something here. Yes, I want to get off of the medications and take a real deep breath, to feel good and HAVE ENERGY again.
And not to have to rely on that little blue pill for extra curricular activites (at $10.00 a pill!).....there I said it.
That provides some motivation too, but not alone enough to quit by itself. I still need the support here.
Well I've rambled on enough for now. Have got to get my car cleaned inside really well. I'll spray some of that fabric
deodorizer on my seats until I can get it in for reupholstering next month. It's like getting in an ashtry everytime I go somewhere. Also am watching my diet more carefully, maybe I need to start taking antioxidants too.
Will check in later. THANK-YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. YOU'RE MAKING A DIFFERENCE.
Barry