I appreciate everyone's support here! I have been dealing with this since my diagnoses back in July.My oncologist's suggestion was what made me decide to have him prescribe it. Between the severe pain in my groin and severe migrain headaches that kept me in bed all day, none of the pain realeavers I was prescribed had any effect except making me be all doped up and not able too work.With the THC, the pain subsides enough to allow me to do my daily work and chores.I go to Captain Hook clean all the way on the other side of Hawaii where the dispensary is located and get my monthly supply.I can get it either in bulk buds or already cooked into cookies, brownies, cakes or candies.They also have the THC capsules but, those are way too strong for me. I was doing a trial with them when I worked at Johns Hopkins Hospital and was epileptic. I was their Guiney Pig and any drugs that were on trial at that time were given to patients like me and a daily log was kept to list all of the effects it had,if any. I was paid $250/week for any of the studies I was chosen to participate in.
I have chosen not to go through with the chemo. Those who have known me since high school know how much Hell I have been through as far as my health is concerned.I had epilepsy and would get Psycho motor, petite maul and grande maul sezures daily and had to where knee pads and a helmit to help keep the woundes down to a minimum.I had experimental surgery ( left temperolobectomi) which has kept me sezure free since 1989. Not long after that took place, I went down to 97 pounds and everyone swore I had A.I.D.S. and I lost my job as well as everything I owned because I got fired (set up) from my job. I became homeless and lived under a bridge for 5 months.I had to leave Baltimore because the reputation I got from looking like an escapee from a Nazi war camp kept anyone from hiring me. In fact, one of my so called friends who owned a teddy bear store in Fells Point was going around to every place there I had applied for work and told them I had A.I.D.S. I had 2 witnesses and took her to court winning the case and keeping her from ruining my reputation any more.I swore to myself I would never be homeless again and, if need be, end my life if that ever happened again.
Now that I am diagnosed with terminal cancer, I will not go any further. Somebody "up there" doesn't want me to live because I keep getting these horrific diseases that are either severe or incurable.So, I am just living each day,one at a time and am ready to go whenever. I may be moving to Hilo because the "drama" here at Scoshi's is way too much on my plate. They steal my tools, my food, my supplies and,sometimes try to get weed from my medicine cabinet. The 6 guys who also, live here on campus drink beer and smoke weed 24/7 sun up to sundown.Pete,who is the "ring master" here, just sold the business and the new owner not only did not pay what he owed but also took $35,000 of OUR money and went to Europe. That money was to pay for our gas, electric,cable,propane and water.All of which were turned off. Without the propane to sell here,we're out of business.I had to take money out of my laundromat profit and apply it toward buying gas to fill our 1200 gallon tank.That was almost $3400!!!!!Once my SSI kicks in(I filed in July and it will be retroactive)I'm out of here. I found a nice 1 bedroom apartment in Downtown Hilo right smack dab next to Rainbow Falls with a beautiful view of the Pacific Ocean and Rainbow falls.$650/month + utilities.My SSI will cover the rent and I will receive $385/month for groceries.The SSI is the max anyone can get and,because I have worked steadily since I was 15 years old,my Social Security really has paid off.It's a shame I can't stay around to take advantage of it and go traveling.