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I don't know if it's a chemical imballance,homesickness or just plane depression. I am not happy here because there are others who are jealous of my pod and wonder why they're in a tent and I am in a studio apartment. I can not answer their question but can assume that their addiction to "ice' and their stealing money from Pete's business along with tools,cars,motorcycls and a posible murder may be one if not all the reasons for that.It rains heavily here and transportation(bus or cab) is utterly rediculous. The nearest toewn is 85 miles away.If you take the bus,your ass better know whether there is one coming back.If not,you're fucked.you'll have to hitch hike and hope to God there are deasent folks that don't hate your race.That happens a lot here if ,at night time,you try to hitch a ride.If you aren't a native Hawaiin,there are some natives here who want you gone.

Anyway, I have the meens to say goodbuy and am so very tempted to go there today.Five different meds and one dose.I had fun here but miss my dog,my friends,my not too imediate family and hope they never get this way.
 
Don't do that

Anyone here able to get him some help? I don't reckon there are many of us in Hawaii, but this isn't good...

Don't let others' jealousy ruin your life for you. If you're enjoying the rewards of hard work, they're yours and you earned them.
 
Chuck-

Check you email.

However, I will say this: You are important to me. You are important to a lot of people here.

When I was feeling weird about my appliance thing, there you were in People Magazine standing in that top-loading KitchenAid.....

Lawrence/Maytagbear
 
CHUCK:

There is nothing and no one worth such finality. You have a whole family of support here who admire you, envy you, and appreciate all the things you do to make this site and world a better place.

No matter what your trials and tribulations, we all go through some REALLY tough times. I'm here to listen. NO MATTER HOW THINGS LOOK NOW, things will get better.

So do this for me. Write to me your every thought, when you are down, no sensoring. I'll be there for you. I won't judge and I don't gossip.

Maybe together we can pull each other up from that which "eats" us.

[email protected]

Your friend,
Steve
 
Chuck...

I hope you are online and reading this. Try to get ahold of someone and talk. I take medication for depression, so it keeps me out of those dark, dank, times.

Things are tough right now in the world and everywhere. It's hard not do get down.

But, and I know this sounds trite -- but please DO try to hang in there -- for your dogs, your friends, and your not-so-immediate family.

We don't know each other -- but I've lurked these forums awhile before joining -- and I know you mean a lot to a lot of people. And their world will be lessened without you. Do try to reach out and talk to one of them, ok?

And please....check in and let us know you're ok?

Your in my thoughts and prayers...

John
 
May marks one year ago

that I checked myself in to the Mental Health Ward at a local hospital. It was THE BEST thing I could have done for myself. I had attempted suicide two weeks earlier (pills, lots of them) and started thinking that way again. The people at St. Joseph's were great! Within 3 days I was making a fast turn a round. I walked out after 6 days feeling that I had a new lease on life. It was simply a matter of the right medication, and some basic self help exercises.

If you are feeling as bad as it sounds, please, PLEASE seek help! Don't worry about insurance, what other people will think, or any of that. It truly saved my life, and made me want to live again!! call me if you like 253-572-1263 I am a night person, so anytime is fine with me.
 
Hey! Chuck, I just sent you an E-Mail:

Let me know if you received my E-Mail all right and about my info. Hang in there Dear Appliance Club Site Friend.

Peace, Blessings and Hugs, Steve
SactoTeddyBear...
 
laundromat

I totally sympathise with you, as you may have read in a previous thread I have Bi-polar, I can manage the mania but its the depression which almsot destroys you each time it hits. I think people here have offered great advise, talk to a therapist, they can be so helpful. Go on the internet, I dont know if the depression alliance has member's near you but the website has a chat room and if you are feeling lonely and isolated that type of site can be a life saver.

Also the internet is great for information on what services and support is in you area or again what help you can recieve on line if you are not able to get out.

Hang in there bud, and feel free to email me direct anytime.

P.S.....take your meds as directed, if you feel you are at risk from sudicidal thoughts look into only getting a weeks worth at a time....the doctor used to do that with me.

Paul x.
 
Chuck,

Sorry you are feeling that way, I know what it's like. Sounds like it would be great if you could just visit with friends and family and get away for a while. I'm sorry I don't know you better but I'm not sure of your situation to offer any other suggestions. You have a lot of people here that are very concerned and I hope you at least speak with those that you know. You are not alone and there are many that love and care about you from the comments that I'm reading so lean on them and let them help. I know it will make you feel better just sharing your thoughts and getting some perspective. I wish you the best my new friend!
 
Chuck...

...Paul's idea of the online support is a good one...DBSA (Depression Bi-Polar Support Alliance) no longer has a chat room...but there is another site called "Edwina's Bipolar Depression Support" which does have a chat room with some great peer support.

The link is below. Click on "Chat Room And Message Board", third purple box from the left. It's Java based, so may take a second to load.

There are some great people on that site that have been through hell and back, and would be honored to help you as well. They got me through some really, really, rough times.

Look for nicknames like "Ocam", "Lea", "Dish", "Kelli", "Hydra", "Purple" "McLake" -- they are wonderful. Others, like "Souldoubt", and "Ozy" will have you laughing so hard your sides will hurt.

I haven't been on there in a while, but I am "StLouisJohn" on that site. Feel free to mention me, they know me. And they will welcome you and be there for you, they are very, very open to newcomers.

Give it a try.

John

http://www.bipolardepression.webpage66.com/page/page/3127775.htm
 
Cymbolta?

I was prescribed to this once before.The family doctor here said I need to go back on it.I have been off all the meds for different issues I had before I left Florida.The antidepresents make me a true bitch.I would pick a different person each day to pounce.It didn't matter to me.I'd also get parenoya?and crying spells.It made me feal like everyone was against me.I didn't realise until I weaned myself off them how much they changed my personality.It bloated me up 135 pounds too.I went from 180 to 315 pounds!I have been eating less and less frequintly here.I am now down to 265.I do not want to go there again.I hate this!My adrenolin is wacko and it makes me feal like I am going straight down a high rolor coaster and free falling to who knows where?I get this every 24 seconds.I haven't slept in two weeks.If I fall asleep,I'm awake 5 minutes later.Caffeen is not an issue.I have a cup of coffee then no other drinks except a large 45 ounce contaner of iced/filtered water.I have three or more a day.I take low dose asperine every 4 hours.Sales are up,I go hiking almost every weekend in Wiepeo (YPO)Valley and because there's a private black sand beach there that my boss owns,I go there alone and swim,surf and sun in the nude.Nobody there except a few lost hikers that just ask for directions to the King's trail.
 
Chuck-

It is not easy, but I am so glad you've been holding on!

I think that most, if not all of us here are on your side.

Lawrence/Maytagbear
 
Chuck!!!!

Sooooo good to hear from you! I'm glad you posted!

Cymbalta shimbalta...if you had bad side effects, no, then it's not the medication of choice for you. I had the same type of reactions when I was on Paxil. Anxiety to the max. I was switched to Zoloft, and now am a Living Temple of Serenity and Positive Energy.

Ok, the last sentence is a bit over the top, but the Zoloft worked. Cymbalta is fairly new, so I imagine the drug reps are pushing it harder than the demonstrators on the Home Shopping Network.

You speak of being uncomfortable, edgy, and whacked out adrenalin. That's clinical anxiety. And something about it triggers depression.

Also, you mention weight issues, common with some anti-depressants. But this additional weight could be causing you sleep apnea. A CPAP machine may be of benefit as well, to help you get a restful nights sleep. That healthy sleep will go a long way to getting you out of this.

I have to say, you are doing a lot of things already to help yourself. Getting exercise through hiking and swimming, very little caffeine, and keeping hydrated with the water, getting sunshine. Those are indicators of someone who really wants to recover -- you just need a little bit more to get there.

John
 
I have been on here a few years and i still dont know a lot of you on here..

The one thing i will say is depression is an awful thing to live with on a daily basis, last year i almost had a breakdown. i have no family hardly any friends and i am on life long medication for a chronic illness. i have had depression and anxiety since i was 20 and i am 34 now. last year the only way to describe how i was feeling, it was like i was in a black room with no windows and no door to escape from, i couldnt even drive or walk to th corner shop as i was also living on my nerves. I am constantly ill and in and out of hospital and last year i didnt think i would be here this year. to be honest i didnt want to be....

its hard, prob one of the hardest things to do but you have to be strong and get through each day as it comes. life will get better, it has to, you dont know wha is round the next corner,

I say this a lot and its true, YOU HAVE GOT TO HAVE BAD DAYS TO HAVE GOOD ONE'S.. there are people that care about you, they may not be immediatley close to hand but there is, this site has been aq bit of a lifeline for me when i am not well enough to leave the house...

i am sure there are people on here that care about you and what happens, me included, your part of OUR family on here and we need you. i know i am thousands of miles away but if you have msn or something similair i can add you and whenever you need to chat or have a little moan then i will be here for you, be warned i moan back tho lol....

just get through each day as it comes as thats all we have
 
To everyone here on AW I truly appreciate all the love,kindness and support all of you have shared.I am seeing a psychologyst who told me I need to get back into doing "my favorite things" which include restoration of old washers and dryers,electric ranges,mixers,vacuum cleaners,floor shampooers,irons,dishwashers and I love Lucy memorobilia. He wants me to try Zoloft again.The last time I was on that,my psychologyst had me on Cymbolta as well.He says that was probably what triggered the problems I had then.I just hate taking medication!The only drugs I am not worried or concerned about and never had any side effects I'm aware of can be home grown but are still illegal.What's wrong with that picture???? Here where I am living,there are at least 5 different ranches where it is legaly grown for medicinal use and I met one local farmer who I pump gas for that brings me buds every other day from his farm.He lives in YPO where three other competitors also grow this plant legaly.I went there a couple of months ago where I was riding a 4 wheeler through a field 125 acres square of merijuana plants 8 feet high being grown legaly.the FEDS hate this and even though it IS LEGAL from the state's views,the FEDS could easily come in and shut his farm down confiscating all the pot there and all the profits made selling to pharmaceutical giants.Just like all the bullshit going on now with the flu,I do not trust the government.They are trying to get everybody inoculated to make money on their drugs and use innocent bystanders to try it out.Meanwhile,hudreds,if not thousands, of people are murdered by this.WAKE UP AMERICA!!!
 
Well darling just be careful self-medicating. That doesn't always go well.

Try researching serotonin replacement and boosting (legal) drugs. This seems to be the one that so many want/crave/need and that which is attempted to be boosted by boozing or smoking or swallowing little pills.... i.e. self-medicating.
 
Letfreedomgrow.com

Hi, Chuck!!! I'm SOOO glad you ARE doing better!!! Check out the website "letfreedomgrow.com". This website is by doctors all about medical pot. Very informative!!!! Just like I told my parents, "you can have my bong or pipe after you PRY it out of my cold, dead hands!!" Someday, we will be as smart as the people in Holland. Take the best of care because this site would not be the same without you!!! PEACE....Bill in Az....
 
YPO

I was invited to a Swiss laundry where they have some machines to be rebuilt. The owner,Jonathan,gets gas here and saw my A806 pair going through their first wash in 15 years! He saw them and drewled. I sold them to him for $1200! He has some old 75 pound capacity gas Heubsch dryers,direct drive W/pool/K'more units,LG gas dryers,Wascomat junior washers and some SQ units in dyer need of rebuilding.He'll pay me 250/unit rebuilt and we are marking down his gas prices because he gets 80 to 95 gallons every other day
 
had to pump a few ,sorry

anyway, Jon gave me a gorgious 48 inch wide double oven,8 burner gas Vulcan Heart range that just needed to be sandblasted and refinished.I replaced the 4 springs for the oven doors that had rusted and broke. I finished it earlier this morning and it works like new. It is going out on the lenie and will be great for the summer meals here. he also,just yesterday brought me a gas wok that I sandblasted too.I will finish it later after the rain stops.
 
Depression

Hi Mate,

I suffer rom Bi Polar, and in the past felt like shit. If you evey need someone to talk to, then please email, I have gone through a lot.

Keep your chin up mate

Paul
 
Chuck I am glad you are feeling better. Depression is a horrible brute to bear. I know this is rather simplistic advice, but do the best you can to keep your mind busy, follow your psychologist's advice and focus on the things you love to do most. It sounds like you have got some projects ahead of you. Pour yourself into those, and when you complete them, look for more. You are loved around here, and have a lot to give.

Peace,
James
 
I'm glad you're feeling better. Seems like in addition to your other issues, you've also been hit with a case of island fever. Not uncommon in Hawaii, I understand.

As far as 420 goes, Obama has directed his administration to go easier on medicinal pot in states where it's legal. That's good news, I think. But I also think the full solution is to make it legal, but regulated, like tobacco.

Personally I think it has medicinal value, but like any medicine it needs to be taken for specific reasons and not just for kicks. I gave up using it regularly some 25 years ago, and completely for the past few years. I don't disapprove of it, I just find I can think more clearly and have a better life experience without it, especially when the going gets tough. Your mileage may vary.
 
I guess this is one of those things that you think you are the only one who has these depression issues and then this link comes up. I was put on anti-depressants a couple of months ago for migraines. These were the result of the stress and depression. I had to try a couple of different ones before I found one I could tolerate. Some made me so nervous I would actually shake. Couldn't sit still had to keep moving. Wanted to crawl out of my skin. Well I found that if I take a clonazepam .5mg along with citalopram 20mg once a day my life has completely changed. Only a couple of migraines since starting this, but I have much more energy and a much better outlook on life. No side effects that I or my wife has noticed. Sometimes you need to take a combo to take the edge off and make these drugs work correctly. A lot of people say its nice to see you smiling and laughing again, what changed? You might want to speak with your doctor about combining you meds. Just adding to this link has made me feel better and we are all concerned about you and everyone in this great family. Hope you are doing well!
Jon
 
Hey...just my 2 cents here....

I have suffered with depression and anxiety for years. Almost to the point of suicide. It was last fall when it hit home really hard, that I was not even myself anymore. I would go into hiding, have bouts of anger, starve myself, get in trouble at work, etc. It was an effort to work, and to function in everyday life.

I took it upon myself to see a psychiatrist. Best thing I have ever done!! I do suffer from high depression, and lots of anxiety. Mine is totally due to a chemical imbalance. I take Welbutrin and Zoloft. Welbutrin is for depression and Zoloft is for anxiety. I am pretty much bet you that you are not sleeping due to anxiety. And lack of sleep is just feeding your depression. It is all linked. I have tried the natural alternatives, and I think that is fine for mild cases. For me, it was not enough. For the record, a 900 mg dose of St. Johns Wort, and a dose of b-50 every day will lessen your affects. One other thing, you HAVE to give time for all meds to take full affect. AT LEAST 2 weeks, if not a month.

I would not go back to a year ago for anything. I am myself, and I am happy. There is treatment. For the record, I hate prescription drugs, but by damn, its better than not being here anymore. I never knew was I was missing. As for those assholes that do not like you, bother you, etc. Fuck 'em. I find myself worrying a hell of a lot less, and much more laid back now. You can get help. Oh, and yea, I have put on some weight, but I was thin as hell to begin with. Now I just look healthier and more fit. Who gives a shit about a little weight, when your well being is on the line.

To be totally honest, smoking pot will lessen your anxiety A LOT and help you sleep. I stayed high back in my down days....so thats a temp fix that does indeed work....just illegal. But screw it, I like it, and it makes you numb, and makes you relax. Best way to end the day.... :)

Good Luck!! Feel free to contact me if you need to talk or want more info. I know a lot just from personal experience and lots of reading/research.

Joel
 
I second the advice to "do what you enjoy". We're on earth only a few blinks in geologic time, so why not enjoy live while it's available?

I was interested to read recently that the bi-polar condition (used to be known as "manic-depressive") is most usually expressed as a depressive state, with occasional "manic" episodes. So I suspect most people who are chronically depressed are to some extent "bi-polar". I know when I sense that I am depressed I also am usually feeling trapped or in a rut... can't do this, can't do that. Wait a minute! I can do anything think I choose... the old saying goes...

"You can't always control what happens to you... but you can control how you react to it".

And a positive reaction goes a lot further than beating yourself over stuff that isn't your fault in the first place.
 

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