depression

[laundromat]

I don't know if it's a chemical imballance,homesickness or just plane depression. I am not happy here because there are others who are jealous of my pod and wonder why they're in a tent and I am in a studio apartment. I can not answer their question but can assume that their addiction to "ice' and their stealing money from Pete's business along with tools,cars,motorcycls and a posible murder may be one if not all the reasons for that.It rains heavily here and transportation(bus or cab) is utterly rediculous. The nearest toewn is 85 miles away.If you take the bus,your ass better know whether there is one coming back.If not,you're fucked.you'll have to hitch hike and hope to God there are deasent folks that don't hate your race.That happens a lot here if ,at night time,you try to hitch a ride.If you aren't a native Hawaiin,there are some natives here who want you gone.

Anyway, I have the meens to say goodbuy and am so very tempted to go there today.Five different meds and one dose.I had fun here but miss my dog,my friends,my not too imediate family and hope they never get this way.

 

[davek]

Don't do that

Anyone here able to get him some help? I don't reckon there are many of us in Hawaii, but this isn't good...

Don't let others' jealousy ruin your life for you. If you're enjoying the rewards of hard work, they're yours and you earned them.

 

[maytagbear]

Chuck-

Check you email.

However, I will say this: You are important to me. You are important to a lot of people here.

When I was feeling weird about my appliance thing, there you were in People Magazine standing in that top-loading KitchenAid.....

Lawrence/Maytagbear

 

[toggleswitch2]

CHUCK:

There is nothing and no one worth such finality. You have a whole family of support here who admire you, envy you, and appreciate all the things you do to make this site and world a better place.

No matter what your trials and tribulations, we all go through some REALLY tough times. I'm here to listen. NO MATTER HOW THINGS LOOK NOW, things will get better.

So do this for me. Write to me your every thought, when you are down, no sensoring. I'll be there for you. I won't judge and I don't gossip.

Maybe together we can pull each other up from that which "eats" us.

[email protected]

Your friend,
Steve

 

[jdinstl]

Chuck...

I hope you are online and reading this. Try to get ahold of someone and talk. I take medication for depression, so it keeps me out of those dark, dank, times.

Things are tough right now in the world and everywhere. It's hard not do get down.

But, and I know this sounds trite -- but please DO try to hang in there -- for your dogs, your friends, and your not-so-immediate family.

We don't know each other -- but I've lurked these forums awhile before joining -- and I know you mean a lot to a lot of people. And their world will be lessened without you. Do try to reach out and talk to one of them, ok?

And please....check in and let us know you're ok?

Your in my thoughts and prayers...

John

 

[jdinstl]

Bumping...

Mark, hoping you're ok and talking to someone. Let us know, ok?

 

[jdinstl]

*smacks forehead*

I meant Chuck. Sorry -- my brain has suds-lock lately.

 

[whitekingd]

May marks one year ago

that I checked myself in to the Mental Health Ward at a local hospital. It was THE BEST thing I could have done for myself. I had attempted suicide two weeks earlier (pills, lots of them) and started thinking that way again. The people at St. Joseph's were great! Within 3 days I was making a fast turn a round. I walked out after 6 days feeling that I had a new lease on life. It was simply a matter of the right medication, and some basic self help exercises.

If you are feeling as bad as it sounds, please, PLEASE seek help! Don't worry about insurance, what other people will think, or any of that. It truly saved my life, and made me want to live again!! call me if you like 253-572-1263 I am a night person, so anytime is fine with me.

 

[SactoTeddyBear]

Hey! Chuck, I just sent you an E-Mail:

Let me know if you received my E-Mail all right and about my info. Hang in there Dear Appliance Club Site Friend.

Peace, Blessings and Hugs, Steve
SactoTeddyBear...

 

[paulc]

laundromat

I totally sympathise with you, as you may have read in a previous thread I have Bi-polar, I can manage the mania but its the depression which almsot destroys you each time it hits. I think people here have offered great advise, talk to a therapist, they can be so helpful. Go on the internet, I dont know if the depression alliance has member's near you but the website has a chat room and if you are feeling lonely and isolated that type of site can be a life saver.

Also the internet is great for information on what services and support is in you area or again what help you can recieve on line if you are not able to get out.

Hang in there bud, and feel free to email me direct anytime.

P.S.....take your meds as directed, if you feel you are at risk from sudicidal thoughts look into only getting a weeks worth at a time....the doctor used to do that with me.

Paul x.

 

[goatfarmer]

Depression sucks big time. Been there, still take the meds. Get out and talk to someone, someone who understands the situation. Situations change, and yours will too. Hang in there, please let someone here know that things are alright.

kennyGF

 

[joeinfl]

Chuck,

Sorry you are feeling that way, I know what it's like. Sounds like it would be great if you could just visit with friends and family and get away for a while. I'm sorry I don't know you better but I'm not sure of your situation to offer any other suggestions. You have a lot of people here that are very concerned and I hope you at least speak with those that you know. You are not alone and there are many that love and care about you from the comments that I'm reading so lean on them and let them help. I know it will make you feel better just sharing your thoughts and getting some perspective. I wish you the best my new friend!

 

[jdinstl]

Chuck...

...Paul's idea of the online support is a good one...DBSA (Depression Bi-Polar Support Alliance) no longer has a chat room...but there is another site called "Edwina's Bipolar Depression Support" which does have a chat room with some great peer support.

The link is below. Click on "Chat Room And Message Board", third purple box from the left. It's Java based, so may take a second to load.

There are some great people on that site that have been through hell and back, and would be honored to help you as well. They got me through some really, really, rough times.

Look for nicknames like "Ocam", "Lea", "Dish", "Kelli", "Hydra", "Purple" "McLake" -- they are wonderful. Others, like "Souldoubt", and "Ozy" will have you laughing so hard your sides will hurt.

I haven't been on there in a while, but I am "StLouisJohn" on that site. Feel free to mention me, they know me. And they will welcome you and be there for you, they are very, very open to newcomers.

Give it a try.

John

http://www.bipolardepression.webpage66.com/page/page/3127775.htm

 

[gredmondson]

Chuck,
Hang in there, Buddy. You mean a lot to a lot of people. Keep us all posted.
George

 

[laundromat]

Cymbolta?

I was prescribed to this once before.The family doctor here said I need to go back on it.I have been off all the meds for different issues I had before I left Florida.The antidepresents make me a true bitch.I would pick a different person each day to pounce.It didn't matter to me.I'd also get parenoya?and crying spells.It made me feal like everyone was against me.I didn't realise until I weaned myself off them how much they changed my personality.It bloated me up 135 pounds too.I went from 180 to 315 pounds!I have been eating less and less frequintly here.I am now down to 265.I do not want to go there again.I hate this!My adrenolin is wacko and it makes me feal like I am going straight down a high rolor coaster and free falling to who knows where?I get this every 24 seconds.I haven't slept in two weeks.If I fall asleep,I'm awake 5 minutes later.Caffeen is not an issue.I have a cup of coffee then no other drinks except a large 45 ounce contaner of iced/filtered water.I have three or more a day.I take low dose asperine every 4 hours.Sales are up,I go hiking almost every weekend in Wiepeo (YPO)Valley and because there's a private black sand beach there that my boss owns,I go there alone and swim,surf and sun in the nude.Nobody there except a few lost hikers that just ask for directions to the King's trail.

 

[laundromat]

ypo

But I still get real edgy and uncomfortable there too.

 

[maytagbear]

Chuck-

It is not easy, but I am so glad you've been holding on!

I think that most, if not all of us here are on your side.

Lawrence/Maytagbear

 

[jdinstl]

Chuck!!!!

Sooooo good to hear from you! I'm glad you posted!

Cymbalta shimbalta...if you had bad side effects, no, then it's not the medication of choice for you. I had the same type of reactions when I was on Paxil. Anxiety to the max. I was switched to Zoloft, and now am a Living Temple of Serenity and Positive Energy.

Ok, the last sentence is a bit over the top, but the Zoloft worked. Cymbalta is fairly new, so I imagine the drug reps are pushing it harder than the demonstrators on the Home Shopping Network.

You speak of being uncomfortable, edgy, and whacked out adrenalin. That's clinical anxiety. And something about it triggers depression.

Also, you mention weight issues, common with some anti-depressants. But this additional weight could be causing you sleep apnea. A CPAP machine may be of benefit as well, to help you get a restful nights sleep. That healthy sleep will go a long way to getting you out of this.

I have to say, you are doing a lot of things already to help yourself. Getting exercise through hiking and swimming, very little caffeine, and keeping hydrated with the water, getting sunshine. Those are indicators of someone who really wants to recover -- you just need a little bit more to get there.

John

 

[robliverpool]

I have been on here a few years and i still dont know a lot of you on here..

The one thing i will say is depression is an awful thing to live with on a daily basis, last year i almost had a breakdown. i have no family hardly any friends and i am on life long medication for a chronic illness. i have had depression and anxiety since i was 20 and i am 34 now. last year the only way to describe how i was feeling, it was like i was in a black room with no windows and no door to escape from, i couldnt even drive or walk to th corner shop as i was also living on my nerves. I am constantly ill and in and out of hospital and last year i didnt think i would be here this year. to be honest i didnt want to be....

its hard, prob one of the hardest things to do but you have to be strong and get through each day as it comes. life will get better, it has to, you dont know wha is round the next corner,

I say this a lot and its true, YOU HAVE GOT TO HAVE BAD DAYS TO HAVE GOOD ONE'S.. there are people that care about you, they may not be immediatley close to hand but there is, this site has been aq bit of a lifeline for me when i am not well enough to leave the house...

i am sure there are people on here that care about you and what happens, me included, your part of OUR family on here and we need you. i know i am thousands of miles away but if you have msn or something similair i can add you and whenever you need to chat or have a little moan then i will be here for you, be warned i moan back tho lol....

just get through each day as it comes as thats all we have