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[hairyguard]

Hi Guys I have returned with some sad news, some may have known me as hairybigman now this was a long long time ago. My partners name was Terry, now the sad new is on August 6th this year he was laid to rest. For my self I start bereavement counseling tomorrow as his death has hit me very bad, the depression sadness and loneliness are very deep. Its like being locked up in a deep black hole and only you have the key when your mind wants to come out, I live I only live to perform day to tasks that need doing. I survived fought and got rid of CANCER, BUT it left me with side effects. Thrombosis and water retention in my right calf, I have to go see a vascular specialist as my gp thinks there are still smaller blood clots in the back of my right calf. Both shins and insteps are affected by pain on a daily basis so I take MORPHEGESIC Oh not forgetting epilepsy I deal with daily by ensuring I take my meds to stave off seizures. At 54 year old I can not work well not just yet, I can get back to work but I have to get over some hurdles 1st. I also lost touch with a man called dan or bendix dan

My Hotpoint washer is on its way out, the belts have been replaced. What its not doing is reaching its full 1400 spin on the cotton wash, no its not over loaded I am always careful not to under or overload. I have had the machine 5 years do you think its ending its cycle, all of the programmes seem to be doing the same thing.

 

[appnut]

Kevin, I still remember you and have been wondering recently how you and Terry were doing.  I hadn't forgotten his health was precarious at best and you were very devoted to each other.  And we'd corresponded a bit.  My deepest condolences at your loss.  Please feel free to email me at my email address in my profile.  A gentle hug, Bob.

 

[rolls_rapide]

My condolences regarding your loss too.

Regarding your machine:
My mum once had a Candy-fied Hoover Performa, which latterly refused to stay at the 1100 rpm spin and wavered up and down the speed range. Thinking it was the carbon brushes, I had a look.

It turned out that not only was the motor's copper commutator well worn, but the electronic printed circuit board had blackened components too. That machine was shortly turfed thereafter.

 

[hairyguard]

Thanks appnut and Rolls Rapide

Where the washer is concerned in time I will get a new one I have my eyes on a tasty grayish black Hotpoint, I have always liked and relied on Hotpoint for reliability and strength. Ok I will admit older Hotpoint s don't last like they usually do given say 8 to 10 years use, but for now newer models the best I can expect is up to 5 years and this one has had a good run. I mean to be used almost every day with a final spin of 1400 rpm can eventually take its toll.

I am just into October and I laid terry to rest on August 6th this year, no don't ask me about it. If you have really I mean really loved someone be they gay or straight for 31 years, you can understand me if I am deep in depression. I can not see day light outside but I know its there, my own mind and heart only can see dark days because the man I still love is not with me no more. So your probably thinking whats to stop you going to find a man in the gay bars, your right nothing I could do that night after night after night. If your thinking to get sex because your lonely, the gay scene is mainly sex based and am I ready for that NO not yet, bereavement counseling has to come 1st I can not move forward. So this is the task I have tomorrow at 11am

 

[paulc]

Kevin

I’m so sorry to hear about Terry. I can only imagine how hard the past few months have been for you. Counselling is an excellent idea and will certainly help you process what’s happened. It’s not a magic “fix all” by any means but it should have some benefit. I hope your first session goes as well as it can. I’m sure I’m not alone in saying if you need a chat we’re hear to listen.

Now, for that pesky washer! Is your heart set on a Hotpoint? Or would you consider another brand? What are your requirements regarding programs, spin speed, capacity etc?

Paulc

 

[hairyguard]

just basic Paulc

I have money set a side, there is only me now. Nothing fancy shmancy, I am an old fashioned old school now set in his ways straight laced gay guy. App nut has seen me and he err almost juiced when he saw a pic of me, BUT I digress I will have a new machine soon I have been happy with HOTPOINT and I will stay with Hotpoint.

 

[hairyguard]

Paulc

No disrespect to you,just to correct you in the picture of assuming of your self. You look younger than me, I am 54 years old and you cannot begin to imagine what I have gone through on my own with out any support what so ever. To have to smile through the preparations of a funeral, to smile sweetly at the minister as I sit and talk about Terry and get some form of uilogy in order, when all I wanted to do was lash out and scream. But no I found the strength to prepare his funeral, to talk about arrangements, to firmly and not aggressively turn away the leeches that turn up out of no where, while his home is undergoing probate. This means no contents can be given away, I did not live with him but eventually his home is going to be put on the market. I am only the care taker of his home there is an executor of his will with solicitor. (STOP)

So you see Paulc you have no idea on top my health issues, and loneliness.

The drum in the washer I have found out to my horror now has become loose, I know this as the drum clicks audibly if moved up and down, and when the load stops and turns over in the drum making an audible click click as the load has dropped, so it looks like I need a new one soon

 

[paulc]

I’m sorry if I caused offence Kevin, it certainly wasn’t my intention.

 

[bendix5]

Our sincerest condolences to you Kevin. I hope you are able to heal your pain and remember the good times. Your Friends, Dan and JoEllen

 

[whirlykenmore78]

So Sorry:

To hear the bad news. Condolences from Minnesota USA.
Nick and Katie

 

[hairyguard]

dan and jo Ellen

No offense at all caused as you can understand I am going through my own personal hell right now, and bereavement counselling are talking me out of it. It's too soon to say if it's working at the moment. I am a man who is stuck on one spot. And totally alone. As I say cancer was the biggest fight I have won,I do not wish this on any one, its left me with side effects of thrombosis and water retention. The cancer has disrupted my digestive system, and reproductive system. My legs are in pain most days of which I take morphegesic, and antidepressant with the evening load of epilepsy meds. But I am alive I can not work as I am a liability.
The washer I have to shop for a new Hotpoint soon as my old one, has a nasty rattle on the drum now. £300.00 is my budget, Dan can you email me please.

 

[hairyguard]

Thank you

Thanks for your words of encouragement, this can only help me get back to the man I was. I would love for some one to say hey Kev how about going for coffee and a big slice of your favorite chocolate cake and lets have a good old natter. That s what I really want, someone just to take time out to listen to me and open their hearts and minds and expect NOTHING back. Is it too much to ask I wonder? I want to stop running

 

[hairyguard]

A LAUGH

While I was having my 1st session of counceling with the bereafment councelor, I was told the building was having an issue with the lighting, as the lighting circuit had malfunctioned. So that go me thinking the lights at Terrys home were a bit temepromental and sometimes did that, so ok 2 reading lamps were brought into the room so my session could carry on. Now about 5 minutes into my session, being a well built skin head full bearded hard looking straight man (so I have been told) I am now sitting there in a room with 2 reading lamps on the table and one of them decides to flicker, while I have got tears going full flow down my face. I looked up at the Ruth lady who was talking to me, THATS TERRY.She is trying to have a serious conversation with me, and the spirit of Terry is in the room making the reading lamp flicker. Every time she would try to say something to me FLICKER FLICKER FLICKER. Well that was it I just looked at Ruth and broke into hails of laughter, and you know what it was Terry because I was laughing at him the flckering stopped. And the lamp went off, I know what Terrys like he did a HUUUMP BE LIKE THAT THEN. but when the main lights were restored the lamp came back on and didnt flicker. Ruth said to me in all my born days I have never know any thing like that happen before, I said Terry was just watching over me and was just wanting to say something. But under the circumstances we were in it was just so funny, he means no harm really.