Ruby Slippers
But then I found myself glowing and I started to speak in an Irish accent so now I have to say:
God loves you. He loves everyone, it's just sometimes you have to love yourself, even forgive yourself before the true blessings will befall you. Sometimes you feel all alone, just look around. Many times you don't get things when you want them, but when God knows you are ready for them. Now start by looking in the mirror and say to you, "I love you." and mean it.
What a perfect way saying, "It is when we accept the fact that are exactly who and what we were designed to be at conception and the Loving Source said, "This is my Beloved Child in Whom I am well pleased." For so many years I was steeped in self hatred and destruction, bitter in my uptight moralistic behaviors. Why did it appear so many were enjoying themselves while I was caught in bitterness? Slowly and with guidance I began to accept the expression of who I am and quit niggling God to fix or change me, the creation The Loving source created in It's perfection. I stopped grabbing at every branch and went into the Flow. Accepting my self allowed me to move beyond bitterness. It was a magical moment when I was in church with an amazing musical minister and healer, Karen Drucker who performs at many New Thought churches. I felt, accepted and moved into knowing there wasn't any judgment, reproach or separation from the One. I could be gay, find a partner, go into the world living free and taking God along with me, understand It enjoys, fun, life and sexual expression. Where ever I go there is no loss. I find Love where it is or more Love, Peace and More Peace and Acceptance and More acceptances. There is Law of Equivalence and Attraction. One would say we cannot be granted riches if we are not ready to be responsible. The other say what we think and where we put our attentions attract similar expressions. I found Love, Acceptance, and protection in Spirit. An exception man was nearly delivered to my door step and we are in our 5 year together. I love consumed and enmeshed with my Love for God and my Love for Life. I move from a place of Fulfillment into more Fulfillments, more Satisfaction and More Peace. It all began with baby steps, like swiping a credit cared and its approved. Over and over the card is used and it never rejected. Soon there no doubt or worry but knowing we are Loved and Abundance falls around us. God speaks to legions of angels that surround and support us, but according to prophecy we must first ask them to serve us. It is the terrible self talk that Spirits hear as well. It may first need to begin as an exercise until it becomes a faith based knowing. I have always loved God absolutely adored Jesus and speak in continuum with the Holy Spirit. I have opened to knowing God expresses with many faiths, many faces and often in the times of greatest need. My view of who God is has no rigid description. I operate in a place of Knowing God, The Source, The Universe; The Force for God enfolds us. It was mine first to accept I am lovable before it begin to express Itself in my Life. I also had a doozey of a story, abuse, sexual abuse, abandonment etc. I carried it like Atlas carried the world and I was ready to tell anyone who listened, "This is my story and it explains why I am the way I am. It had to purpose but to control and divert my attention from knowing none of that was God's plan nor did the Mother/Father God ever want it to happen. I finally needed to let go of the story, leave the story at God's feet and in nakedness and with no supporting props begin my journey into Love. I know in this moment none of these hurtful setbacks and disappointments are of God nor are they the truth of who you are. In this moment those falsehoods and hurts are bound and Love, Unconditional Love the Source that feeds us all stand ready to lift you above the fray and begin the Loving task of letting it all happen. Old things pass away and everything is new. So it is and I know just as Luke said in the New Testament, "let there be" it is done as I speak and release my words into the Automatic action of the law and say "It is done and so it is." I ache for you, for that is who I was for 54 long and difficult years. The last 5 have been miraculous, easy and I truly live in Satisfaction and Fulfillment. My wish for you and for everyone who reads this is that you know your are Loved. It is so much more profound that a word or and action. It is a feeling, knowing and being fully surrounded with Love. I feel like an old television that finally got cable. My picture is clear and bright and it is all because I am created by a Loving Source and I know walk in that Power, the Power of Truth.
We can be born again and just as I welcome three children to the world, I was made fresh and new, given all the benefits of heaven. Flesh of His flesh and bone of Hos bone, joints heirs to the vastness of the Heavens and Universe, they are all mine, my Divine rights as the Beloved Child. Good Luck.
